Bittersweet

So I went to his parents house (he hasn't moved yet) to go and watch LOST.



Nearly fell asleep.



We snuggled. We had small kisses.



And then I went home.



Some of it felt so natural and some of it was so surreal.



I am uneasy about it all. Like I've said before, I believe there is someone else and that's why he is struggling. Because if there was absolutely no one else, why wouldn't he say, "There's only you, but I just need time. You are the one. Please wait for me."?

I need to articulate how I feel because I'm not sleeping well at all.

I feel scared.
I feel anxious.
I feel nervous.
I feel confused.
I feel angry.



I really truly feel like I a competing for his affection and attention.