It is now August. Wow, a few months between each post? I suppose that really does mean things are getting better, right?
So what am I so worried about? I really have some serious trust issues and want so much to confront him on so many different things where I believe I caught him lies. But what's the point right? For the most part he is home.
Perhaps as usual, I'm about to be on my period, so well - this is when most of this comes out.
In the meantime, work has hit an all time low if that's possible. There have been layoffs and I didn't realize how much it would make me feel. I am incredibly angry and perhaps I'm transferring my leftover pain from the relationship with my husband to work.
I feel incredibly lost with some things right now and am looking for guidance. Of course what's happening at work doesn't compare to what happened to me and the husband, but I don't know.
Ugh.
Am I finally at my tipping point?
What do I want though?
I want to visit Italy.
I want to win the lottery. Ha.
I want to have a child or be around children somehow.
I want my marriage to have that same ease of trust and communication that it once did.
I want to do something artistic again - whether it's spoken word, singing, guitar or comedy.
I've just got to break out of my shell of fear. I know. I've always got an excuse.
